What do you want in life? How do you see yourself years from now? Do you see yourself happy, with a family, with a husband, living the dreams. Whatever it is, whether I’m in it or not, I’m happy for you. If you would ask me those, you just get irritated of hearing my lousy and unprofounded dreams. Why? Because the only goal, the only dream that I want to come true is with you, with the plans we made together. Yes, I may be a fool of thinking and dreaming that you could be my wife, that we could get married, and we could live together that we can have a family of our own. That’s just me, I’d rather be fool living in those broken dreams, at least there I know I am happy, I’m only happy with you. I’m on a verge that I know who I wanted to be with until the end. Up until my skin wrinkles up, my joints weakens, my hearing decreases, but atleast in those dreams I am young and alive. I am still confussed on what you really feel or on what you really think you are feeling towards me, but I know that what we had, and what we still have is real, that it never fades away. Love is still there, and I’m just hoping you would take a risk to grab it again and never let go. I am messed up, my life is messed up, it has been since my day one here on earth. But I know when I’m with you, everything is going to be fine. I miss how you would love me endlessly, because you are the only one who showed me and make me feel that I am worth loving for and fighting for. It just sucks now that everything is going topsy turvy. I’m back again on a point that I am in love with a person, but with no attachment, that even though I get jelous or even if I wanted to say how I love you it’ll be just like saying it in front of a mirror, or I’ll just keep it to myself because I know those words will not talk back at me instantly. Forever alone huh. Sometimes I wish that you would stop being afraid, cause the truth is, I am not the only one who is afraid here, it’s also you, and just take a risk. Right know I am confussed, you know you love me, I know you love me, we are happy together, we can’t stand a day without seeing each other, but then again, you are still not sure if we could be together. For whatever worth it is, I am still sticking up with the promise and vow that I left behind. I’m yours, my love is only yours. I’m a dumbass who is freakingly inlove with you. And hope that not because I am so madly inlove with you that you are so comfortable of not losing anything. I just dont want to miss every single moment, every single day that I am still alive to say I love you. I regret nothing. I won’t get tired, I don’t even know why I am not mad, I’m always here dreaming of our dreams, our plans, our hopes, our love.